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So I know that I never update, and I don't know how many people even read this, but...I'm thinking of getting a new journal (different name, that's all). This one is 6 years old and contains a lot of crazy stuff, and I feel like I need to start over with a blank slate, you know? This here slate has stuff that I can't believe I wrote and thought, stuff that really isn't about who I am any more. But that's not to say I'm still not crazy. Well, that's a little harsh, but...in my head I feel crazy, even if in actuality there's a lot of crazies out there with more crazy than me. Right? Right.

The Effexor weaning symptoms lasted until maybe around February, and since then I've been getting a real life back together, which is way harder than I thought. School applications and registration take place long before I can actually be in school, so I'm twiddling my thumbs until Fall 2009 when I will finally be attending a 4-year school again. In the meantime I'm starting classes this summer at community college to get some GE stuff out of the way, and will be working part-time when I can find a god damn job. Previous to now I've always gotten a job wherever I applied, and now I'm learning how lucky that was, because shit, I'm sending out a lot of resumes for jobs that I and 2 million other people are qualified for.

I have been offered a very special and tempting job working at a medical marijuana collective. That means that every time I go to work I can smoke all the medical stuff I want for free, and get paid to sit around in a very pleasant-smelling place. The issue I have is that the collective moved from one location in Long Beach to downtown, which would make the trip 30% longer each way, and getting out of there around 5 or 6 will not be pretty. It would be a lot of driving for a job that only pays $10/hour starting (even though it's all in cash and not taxed!) Also, I've been told pretty blatantly that though these jobs are extremely hard to get, my main qualifier is being cute. While that was extremely flattering, I would be working with all guys, and 4 out of 5 patients are male, so that would be a lot of guy exposure. A lot of stoner-guys-wanting-hugs exposure (this is my experience there so far), and I don't know how much I'd have to, or want to, constantly be around that, because to be honest it's creepy and puts me in a defensive position. On the other hand, I could be freaking out about nothing and have it entirely in me to deflect that kind of stuff, plus I'd get to meet a lot more cool people than I would answering phones at a real estate office. And that brings me back to my issues with the commute again. And then I think FUCK RANI, you hated working in offices doing all that crap office stuff - HOW COOL IS THIS JOB OFFER? But on the other hand, I need a job to pay for college, and if I can get $14/hour to be a receptionist part-time with a 10 minute commute, then that is really more practical. And perhaps more soul-crushing, but ultimately better. WHAT SHOULD I DO???

Oh and I went on a honeymoon to Mexico and it was fucking awesome. I have some pictures on my myspace and facebook.
I also got a sweet vaporizer. It was a little late since I've cut back on smoking a whole lot, but it still kicks ass.
Aaaand my puppy is a sweet little butthole.

EDIT: It looks like I very well may get a job at my old place of employment that has the incredible commute of 5 minutes or less, depending on the traffic lights. If so, problem solved - sorry Long Beach Collective.


May. 9th, 2008 03:59 am (UTC)
are you required to commit to a certain amount of time with the pot people? If not, I say take the job and keep looking for a better one. You can always quit if you find something better or don't like it.

Also, I'm jealous of your vaporizer.

Oh, and I don't think you should get a new livejournal. Everyone has embarrassing pasts and previous posts in their journals. It's part of growing up and having an online journal. Who's gonna go back and read your older entries besides a creepy stalker or yourself anyway?
May. 10th, 2008 10:18 pm (UTC)
The pot people haven't really given me much info about my hours and the flexibility. The commute is 30 minutes each way without traffic, so I'm pretty sure I'll turn them down if I get offered a job at the old place I worked (MIND Institute, makers of the kid math software). It just seems like more trouble than it's worth at this point.
I guess I'll keep my journal. I've had a paid account forever and you're right about no one reading it.
I got this awesome vaporizer: www.herbalaire.com
I tried a Volcano and decided it was awesome enough that I should buy one. The herbalaire is like half the price and pretty much the same thing.
May. 10th, 2008 11:21 pm (UTC)
haha.. that vaporizer looks really phallic. I've had the pleasure of trying a Volcano before, but only once :o(


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